I think I turn to my blog to help me sort my thoughts. Get everything in order and then move forward. Onward and upward.
As the time looms closer (a little over a month now), I’m finding so many mixed emotions.
Overwhelmed by all the things we need to get done before we leave.
Nervous about the exchange of the keys for the people we have moving in temporarily.
Excited by the trip of a life time.
Afraid of the unknown. Not knowing how my wee babe is going to grow and what stages she is going to go through when while we’re away.
Protective of my tweenager to make sure all her needs and emotions are met.
Happy and lucky to be able to give our children such an amazing experience.
Anxious about the well being of our tenants.
Freeing once we’re on the road. I can’t wait to feel this feeling to it’s fullest. Granted it will probably take me a couple of days to feel this in it’s entirety – to let go of my lists and responsibilities and know that I’ve taken care of it all – but won’t that feel amazing…
Over and above everything, this is really challenging my “controlling” nature. Not being able to get a grip on everything I’m feeling, is leaving me to feel a bit distorted. Actually, a lot distorted.
I’m finding that I just want to keep doing fun things around here while the weather is getting better and better. Let’s go to Sidney Spit for the day. How about camping next weekend with my best friend and her family? And who can say no to BBQ’s a plenty.
But after yesterday, I think I’m going to have to bid these events adieu until 2012. My hubby and I went through our house yesterday, making yet another list to decide on what we need to pack up. We need to do this because of the people we have moving into the house. And after we did that (it’s a loooooong list), we itemized it to figure out what can be done now, and what needs to wait until the weekend before and what waits until the day before. We have a lot of things that need to wait until the weekend before. A LOT.
And that’s just packing up the house! Then there’s packing of our suitcases. 4 people (one infant) and three seasons. Figuring out the logistics of who’s going to water the garden, how do we do the exchanging of the keys, fixing a few things around the house, packing the camping gear, packing the car, cleaning the house from top to bottom, making sure I have enough clothes for the wee babe for the size she will be in the season it will be…
Phewf! Head is spinning again. Take it one day at a time. You can do this.
Start making a dent in what needs to get done and you’ll feel like you’re getting somewhere. Give your tweenager hugs and reassurances that everything is going to be ok. Include her in the preparations so it feels like we’re moving forward. Make lists, check things off. Check lots of things off so it feels like you’re on top of it all.
It’s all going to get done before we leave. It will. There’s no doubt about that.
Onward and upward.